bete !

ah, kesel sebel..
jawaban uda di depan mata, karna terlalu pede jadi salah.. ya allah, smoga nilainya 9 deh. ga mau kurang dari itu.. klo aja nurut, pasti 10, atau pun kecil"nya 9,75. klo 8,75 msh ga puas.. ! ya allah, hamba meminta padaMu sempurnakan lah nilai hamba, ga cuma mtk yg lain juga. amin, karna Engkaulah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.. amin yaa rabbal alamin :)

hmm, sudah berapa jalan ku lewati begitu penuh lika liku jalan yang kuseberangi, meski tlah beberapa jalanku lalui tapi hatiku tak sepenuhnya berpaling darimu, berbagai macam cara tlah ku lakukan tuk melupakan dirimu, tapi entah mengapa kau slalu hadir disetiap langkahku, meski kini ku tlah bersamanya, bayangmu menghantuiku sepanjang waktu, sakit rasanya bila selalu teringat tentang mu, tak mampu ku lupakan mu meski semua itu hanyalah kenangan usam yang tlah berdebu, mungkin kini kau tenang tanpaku dan bahagia bersamanya. ku harap begitu walau hati ini terbakar, huuuaaahh.. ga ikhlas juga ngomongnya :( eehhh, andai aja kamu tau kalo aku masih syg ama kamu gmna yaa ? pengen liat ekspresi kamu, kaget? bingung? ataw pasang wajah innocent? ah apa emang kamu tuh udah berubah yaa ??? kenapa sih bisa berubah gitutu? jgn jgn kamu emang uda benci banget ama aku ? tapi aku mau tau kamu benci ama aku tuh kenapa? ga ada salahnya nanya kan ? aaahhh kamu tuh bikin aku bingung dah ! ga ngerti ama kamu !!!

sampai detik ini pun saya msh bingung menjelaskan perasaan saya .
mempunyai perasaan ini membuat saya sperti tercabik" .
dia mampu membuatku sangat damai dan bahagia dlm suatu waktu , tapi juga membuatku jatuh terpuruk kemudian . dengan waktu yg relativ singkat .
dia mampu buatku tersenyum sekaligus menangis dalam hati .
aku ingin mendekatinya sekaligus menjauhinya .
aku mengerti dia sekaligus tidak memahaminya .
disaat ingin melupakan , butuh seluruh tenaga untuk melakukannya dan itupun tak bisa .
disaat aku lupa , hanya butuh sekejap mata untuk mengingatnya kembali .

aku sudah mulai ragu dgn keyakinanku sendiri .

meraihnya atau melepaskannya ?

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever)
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly